foolsarcana | (no subject)

That's not why I didn't tell you, Itsuki. I don't play games like that. I just... everything was so complicated then and so much happened so fast. Things have really just started to calm down thanks to graduation.

[ and she can hear it, which makes her feel like crap. ]

I know.

[ he sighs ]

Besides the fact that by nature I'm not particularly the type of person to yell, the circumstances aren't clear-cut, are they? At a time like that... well.

They're really not, even after a few months of being able to look back on it. When I told Yukari about it, all I could say was that it was complicated.

... I'm sorry. I should've told you. I just didn't know where we stood.

I was fairly sure we were dating at first, but considering you weren't, I suppose we really should have had a decent conversation about it at some point.

I did at first, but after things got so hectic with end of the world things and death and everything, I wasn't sure. Things just seemed so strained. They have for a little while now, and I hate that.

I do, too. This certainly isn't as easy as everyone else seems to find it. [ and if she thought they were dating at first, then New Year's-- but he's not going to let himself think about that. ] What now, I wonder?

Well... what do you want to do?

...Well, the darkly optimistic view would say that if you wanted to try again, at least it would be very hard for either of us to be worse at it.

... that really didn't answer my question, Itsuki.

I completely understand if you don't want to try again. If that's how you feel, then... alright. Just tell me.

I know.

[ he sighs, and then is quiet for a few moments ]

I don't... quite know what's best. Mostly right now I just want to see you, which really does mean that I'd like to keep trying... is what I think. But we do keep upsetting each other one way or another, don't we? It's like we keep missing what we're trying for in the dark, somehow.

I feel the same way. I want to keep trying, but it has to be a mutual decision.

I don't have any other secrets to keep from you and I'll do my best to keep from upsetting you. That's the last thing I want. I just... want you.

...Shall we give it another go, then? Properly, this time.

I'd like that.

Hopefully we'll be able to spend more time together, now that life has settled down a bit. It's rather hard to keep track of what's happening in such a hectic situation.

Tell me about it. Junpei might complain that life's boring now, but me? I think I'm happy just being a teenager and student. Just being normal.

I want to see you. Soon.

I'm not busy today.

How odd. Neither am I.

Where do you want to meet? There's no one here if you're looking for somewhere quiet.

Edited 2011-03-23 17:13 (UTC)

Considering I live alone, there's no one here, either-- excepting my cat, that is. It's really up to you.

I'll come by. I still have something I was supposed to give you.

I'll keep an eye out for you, then.

(( Do you want to set something up or just take the easy route of switching to actionspam? :') ))

I shouldn't be too long.

[ and true to her word, she doesn't. In a little over an hour she's knocking on his door, dressed very casually and carrying a small package in her hands. ]

[I'm all for the actionspam!]

[ he opens the door to his apartment as if he hasn't been stewing in his own thoughts for the past hour, and very nearly manages to not be remotely awkward about it ]

Fancy seeing you here.

Just thought I'd drop by since I was in the neighborhood.

[ she seems awkward enough for the both of them right now. ]

Well, I suppose it would only be polite to invite you in, under the circumstances.

[ He sweeps an arm towards the living room with a grand gesture, shutting the door after her to prevent the escape of the mildly curious cat that's come to greet her. His apartment is a bit larger than you might expect for a high school student living on his own, and cleaner, too, but otherwise it's fairly average. He doesn't exactly spend much time decorating ]

[ For a long moment, her attention is on the cat. She loves most animals and doesn't even try to hide her fondness. As soon as she's greeted the cat, she glances around before she offers him the little box. ]

I've been wanting to give you this since Valentines day, but I kinda lost my nerve when you were talking about you already got from admirers. Of course, they're not the same ones since Junpei ate all of them after I changed my mind... I just made these a few days ago in the hopes I could at least drop them by.

[ Inside the box is several small chocolates, obviously handmade. ]