foolsarcana | (no subject)

Yukari gave me your number - I hope you don't mind.

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Hello?

Oh, it's you. I don't mind that she gave it to you. I would've if I'd seen you around the community lately.

She mentioned you were sick. Are you alright?

[ ring ring ]

Hey.

Is this better?

It probably is.

Anyway... I should apologize for not being honest with you after I yelled at you for the same thing.

Well, we've both had our big lies now, haven't we? It's a case of fair's fair.

[ he's obviously trying very, very hard to sound absolutely normal, and only managing about 80% ]

That's not why I didn't tell you, Itsuki. I don't play games like that. I just... everything was so complicated then and so much happened so fast. Things have really just started to calm down thanks to graduation.

[ and she can hear it, which makes her feel like crap. ]

I know.

[ he sighs ]

Besides the fact that by nature I'm not particularly the type of person to yell, the circumstances aren't clear-cut, are they? At a time like that... well.

They're really not, even after a few months of being able to look back on it. When I told Yukari about it, all I could say was that it was complicated.

... I'm sorry. I should've told you. I just didn't know where we stood.

I was fairly sure we were dating at first, but considering you weren't, I suppose we really should have had a decent conversation about it at some point.

I did at first, but after things got so hectic with end of the world things and death and everything, I wasn't sure. Things just seemed so strained. They have for a little while now, and I hate that.

I do, too. This certainly isn't as easy as everyone else seems to find it. [ and if she thought they were dating at first, then New Year's-- but he's not going to let himself think about that. ] What now, I wonder?

Well... what do you want to do?

...Well, the darkly optimistic view would say that if you wanted to try again, at least it would be very hard for either of us to be worse at it.

... that really didn't answer my question, Itsuki.

I completely understand if you don't want to try again. If that's how you feel, then... alright. Just tell me.

I know.

[ he sighs, and then is quiet for a few moments ]

I don't... quite know what's best. Mostly right now I just want to see you, which really does mean that I'd like to keep trying... is what I think. But we do keep upsetting each other one way or another, don't we? It's like we keep missing what we're trying for in the dark, somehow.

I feel the same way. I want to keep trying, but it has to be a mutual decision.

I don't have any other secrets to keep from you and I'll do my best to keep from upsetting you. That's the last thing I want. I just... want you.

...Shall we give it another go, then? Properly, this time.

I'd like that.

Hopefully we'll be able to spend more time together, now that life has settled down a bit. It's rather hard to keep track of what's happening in such a hectic situation.

Tell me about it. Junpei might complain that life's boring now, but me? I think I'm happy just being a teenager and student. Just being normal.

I want to see you. Soon.

I'm not busy today.

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